~Varsoon

I had a heart of glass.
It was beautiful but it couldn’t last.
My dear love, alas...
She shattered my heart of glass.

I then grew a heart of Stone.
However, love left me alone.
When love spoke to me again, i could not reply.
With a heart of stone, i figured i should just die...

So i think i should just have a heart of silk.
That way, it would be as beautiful as any lake,
But if my love dropped it...
It wouldn’t break.

A child once told me a story.
"Kit." he said, "There’s a tree outside."
I was like, "Yeah. I know."
He said, "Kit. There’s a lot of trees in the world."
I was totally like, "Yeah. There is."
Then he said, "Is that why they cut them down? There’s a lot? People try not to use gas becuase there isnt much left, right?"
I nodded. "People don’t care about taking lives or hurting other things if they’re in abundance. If there were only fifteen trees left in the world, not a single one would be hurt, i bet. Though, there are always crazies."
With that, the kid smiled. "Im not gonna hurt other people just becuase i can, Kit. That’d be mean. Even if it’s one of many, it’s still an individual."
I was suprised at how cool this kid was. Then i realized i was talking to myself.

So, again, kit has figured it all out. Simple, it comes to him again, a new breath of intellegence and foresight, allowing him visage into the deeper parts of society and man’s truth. He has sit, for years now, pondering over all things. Gods, women, men, society, the future, the past, the present, life, happiness, destruction, and rebirth. He has found what he beleives to be closest to truth, though then he found the truth is a boring, mundane thing. So, what was his take on it? We all live. We all die. There are no gods. Petty things like emotions and love and present and past and future are all ideas to please us on our road in life, all things that keep us from embracing death. They are simply what they are, ideas. But ideas are strong. So very strong. Kit has continued to use metaphor to explain a significant ascendence in his life, a sort of splendorific expansion towards a mental state of knowledge, a new threshold only touched by few masters before him. Perhaps ignorance was bliss, but knowledge is power, and cliches are foolish. Does one really wish to know what knowledge can bring? Upmost pleasure. Knowing. Not having mundane attributes like fear. Knowing. Not having to worry about praying or asking forgiveness or evils or sins. Knowing. Having such a moral quality that you are an epitapth of greatness.

Eventually, Kit would come to understand that in knowing, one will know what truely pleases them and how to truely obtain that one thing. This is what i like to call the pure pleasure. Regular people are curropt, evil. They walk in no real direction, only furthering their own lives, only caring for things mundane and human. Only themselves. Only the ones they are close to. Only what makes them feel good. This is not the Pure Pleasure. The Pure Pleasure is found in knowledge. You must first know what you need. Then you must know how to obtain this need. The need must be true. If you do not have knowledge and you attempt to obtain Pure Pleasure, it will be for naught. You will most likely stumble and loose your way again.

There is a way of living. Everyone has a way of living. This Way is not usually particular, though it can be. A way of living is vital to the Pleasure of Everyday Life. I live in the now. The past has happened. You may look back apon it and regret something, but that regret will birth only further loss. The future has not happened. You shape it. Why fear something that may never come. I say that I will live now. Time itself is only an idea which keeps us sane, really. We all have this basic concept of time. However, the Way of the Present is not bound by the laws of time. In this Way, there is only the now. You may do something. That is now. It will have happened, perhaps, but for a second, it is a now. The past becomes a blur, irrelevant. The future dissapears, nonexistant. To see such things as important is folly.

Now, some skeptics will claim that you must plan your future and learn from your past. I say this inclines you towards failure. Learn from your past? That implies you have made mistakes. You learn from them. That links learning to making mistakes. This makes you beleive that if you err, you will learn. There are other methods of learning. Also, planning your future is not the right path either. To set limits on yourself is to bind yourself from flight. Simply snip your wings now, for in the future you will be bound to your plans and will not be able to enjoy freedom and a security that you are able to shape and change what is now, rather than then or later.

Other people will try to tell you things, make them seem deep, but in truth, these things are as shallow as the streams the flow through the woods in spring. There are some truths to what everyone says. I am not claiming that my Way is right for you, i am simply claiming that i have reached such a point of knowing and being that I simply understand what i must do to be truely happy. I know the secret to life.

Some will say the secret to life is happiness. Others will say there is no secret to life. I did not start on my road looking to uncover secrets. I started here becuase I wished to further myself. To becomes someone greater. To Ascend. I found out first who i was. This allowed me to move myself across the playing feild of life quite freely. After that, I was enabled to find out what the world was like. I soon found the path to superior being. In this god-like state of being, that was the answer to all questions. I now knew all answers. It became so simple, yet unbeleivable. The secret to life? Don’t make me laugh. Life itself. There’s no secret to be found. It’s like asking what color a yellow firetruck is. Simple.

One person once asked me what the secret to happiness was. I laughed. If you need a secret to happiness, i pity your soul.

People will ask me why i don’t care about humanity as whole anymore. My simple conclusion is that they are evil. However, this does not mean i shun the individual. Everyone within this race is an individual. I will see you all as equal until one of you commits a wrongdoing, which will then show that you are less of a true saint and more of the exact definition i have for humans. Evil.

I am always confronted with a question of death. I have figured the answer. The real answer. You cannot fathom nonexistance. There must be some existance past this one. Think back. If you had never seen light before, it would be the same as the void after death. You wouldn’t fathom it. We consider life to be the opposite of death. I say this is wrong. They are parallels. We exist, then we simply do not. It is a new experience. Why should you bind yourself to the idea you always exist? Are you not simply running from a new sensation known as non-existance? Personally, i think that it would feel peaceful, nonexistance. I will have to see one day.

Who am I? Hugh Kristopher Simonson. I’ve been called "Kit" by everyone becuase my parents really should have named me that. Im most likely smarter than anyone you know, im a serious genius. I’ve already answered all the questions i need answers to and i’ve obtained a true happiness and zen. Im reclusive and soft spoken, unless im pumped, then i can be quite active and loud. I make more sense than i know, too. There are things i like. I like straight hair in girls and i cant stand it any other way. I like cats and dogs can be a pain. I like people who arent fucking annoying and who can understand. I like anime and japanese music and history, but not all things japanese, of course. Am i a nerd or dork? You could say that. But before that i am a badass. Plain and simple. Thats how i am. To say im boring and nothing special is a damned lie. Im the kind of guy who will be utterly nice with no ulterior motives. I think women are beautiful. I hate people who think they know me, i hate children that don’t know discipline and i hate someone who thinks they know the true Way when they don’t. I hate when people don’t listen. But overall, i hate hating things. Im a benevolent, loving person and i don’t seek anything but to aid others. My goal in life is to be something that people will remember and love. I’ve been deceived far too many times to care anymore, and i truely beleive that i can live forever, happily, without a lover. I’ve grown to completely love myself and i really don’t need other people at all. At all. But, that doesn’t keep me from wanting to be with others and to share with them the fruit of life. Some people call me Emo, and it’s quite funny. Maybe i do fall under that, sometimes. I can be depressive, but my table is turned, my life is a usually one of happiness. I wish i could have my favorite music blaring at all times. I wish I could live in a time when fighting was for becoming a better fighter and finding your Way and socializing with others was the norm. I wish i could live amoung and with people who were totally awesome. I wish I had super powers. I beleive age is simply a number and experience is what truely sets us apart. I beleive people these days are much too mundane and that they worry entirely too much. I beleive you need to stop reading this and talk to me to know more about me. Bitch.

"The greatest happiness ever...

Was when i wanted something so bad, but lost it forever..."

Im seriously begining to think that IM fucked up. I’ve traced it back and the moments when i was most happy are when i was denied the girls i’ve had feelings for. For instance, most people hate breaking up, but i’ve always felt this incredible joy and freedom, even though I was the one who wanted the relationships to work. I’ve figured out that becuase of this, I think im more happy single. It’s ’cus im seriously fucked up. Well, not really "Fucked up" so much as twisted and incredible. See, i’ve reached a reverse-nirvana. Things that would normally piss people off or fucking annoy them make me feel incredibly happy and joyful. I thrive where others suffer! Now, this doesn’t mean that i hurt others or go out seeking drama. Nah. Nothing like that. I’ve just reached an incredible, unbeleivable mental process that makes me happy regardless of the situation.



It’s so much easier to destroy than it is to make. So much easier to erase than to draw. Mankind usually takes the easier route, so it makes sense. In our minds, every other being is inferior. Almost all humans have this superiority complex. Look around the internet, people insult each other all the time to make themselves feel superior. They can do it anonymously, too, so they wont have to suffer punishment. It’s so incredibly stupid. People make themselves pitiful as to seek pity, becuase they figure that will make people like them more or support them. People hurt other people becuase it makes them feel stronger. People are pretty danmed foolish, you know? When is it all going to stop? Probably never. We are a really danmed horrible race. You never see any other species eliminating each other. They all live in a peaceful co-existance, only hunting one another for food reasons, but never going so far as to kill each other. There’s always the virtuous who say "Justice will prevail" and "Religion saves" and "Love will win". As much as i’d love to beleive in all of that, it doesnt work 100% of the time, and it’s funny, becuase it all boils down to one specific point...

Humans are evil becuase Humans are capable of lies.

No other being lies as much as humans. We figure that this lie will help us or allow us a betterment, when all it causes is pain. If people never lied, then relationships would work out, religion would work out, people wouldn’t die as much, and all of that. Humans are capable of Hate, Murder, and Lies and that is what makes us a foul species. Sure, we can Love and all of that, but the odds dont justify the means. That’s how i’ve obtained the true happiness. I’ve destroyed all of the petty shackles of mankind and gained an ascendence. It’s something that anyone is capable of.